Quote:I understand Sila, which is part of why I made the official decision to change my username to just plain Dan. I like a short, identifiable but not overtly unique username as a mod. The personality with the old username was great, and the name had meaning for me, but it was beginning to become a pain even for me, lol.

hehe, i stick to one easy to spell and easy to remember nickname :3 i'm often getting those Captcha messages wrong, and your old screename was set up like one, with the numbers and letters and stuff. XD thanks for the change, dan is easier to remember for sure

Quote:Sila, I related to so much of what you shared last night. I would be very surprised if you didn't have SPD. Here are some checklists that may help you:
Adolescent and Adult SPD Checklist
Adult SPD Checklist page - that one is on my old site, which I am redesigning and going to make a lot easier to follow

I saw that checklist site earlier when I did a little googling, didn't know that was your site! It's ironic and funny how I have quite a bit of those, but I never could put a finger on just why I was like that. Texture for just about everything is a big problem for me, that's one that sticks out the most in that list. I hate wearing clothes because they feel like needles on my skin all the time, unless i'm wearing a really baggy shirt and some boxers that are two sizes two large. I don't like to walk in the grass barefoot, but I can sometimes walk in soft sand without shoes. I dislike socks and shoes immensely, no matter how good quality they are. x_x i sometimes get moments where it feels like my whole body is being poked with tiny little needles everywhere, and every little touch just sends the needles deeper into my skin. i never know why, or how to stop it, but i hate it. Dx not even pain killers helps when that happens.

food texture is a big bummer too..i love sushi, but most of the good sushi i can't eat because there's too many textures combining. i usually have to take each piece of the sushi apart and eat it separately before i eat it. Dx and i can't eat any kind of raw fish, the slimy/cold/clammy texture and feel will drive me up the wall. ._.;

and smell..i can't be in the same room as someone who's cooking, because the scent of cooking food makes me gag. oddly enough i can bake without too much trouble, but frying anything or cooking, forget it.

it's kinda nice knowing that i'm not crazy, haha. ^^; there's soo much i could write about, but i don't wanna talk your ear off ^^;

Quote:Sila, man do I understand this!
That is exactly what it's like for me when I get home from a day at work and/or classes. I just want to die. If someone talks to me, I snap at them. My nerves are fried and shot. Here's a couple articles I've written that may help you, the first one was published in a magazine last year (yay!):
5 Steps for Dealing with SPD as an Adult - about the SPD discovery phase
SPD Meltdowns - this describes what they are and feel like

Those links do kinda help, but I still can't always see it when a breakdown is approaching...most of the time they just hit me like a brick wall to the face, and i'm lost in what to do until it passes.

My mom always wonders why I'm snappy at the end of the day, or in the early mornings. I never even knew why myself, other than the fact that I felt overwhelmed- but from what? I didn't know. I thought I was possibly on the autism spectrum, because after being around a lot of people I'd come home feeling exhausted. But I realize it isn't because I'm around people, per say, it's just too many things going on at once sending my body into panic mode. I love socializing, small parties, and being with other people. It just gets to be too much sometimes.

Quote:Sila, I'm sorry to hear about the many ways you are struggling. It is more than okay to discuss these things here . Oh, and don't worry about typos. I have a 'no grammar nazi' rule here . Orrrrr... if I don't, I should write one. Spelling and grammatical errors are okay here. Hey, if they weren't, I'd be a hypocrite .

well I have a spell checker when I'm at my house, so I can use that most of the time to fix my mistakes XD

Quote:Cool, hope that went well. Again, welcome, and I hope you enjoy your time here and get all the support you need . Best wishes.

Thankie :3 I'm looking forward to talking in IRC more, I'm more of a fan of realtime chat than forums tbh.