Well.... sometimes that is a sign when it is time to move on and start fresh. I had to make a decision similar to that two years ago. I finally deceided to get a divorce. I didn't have a pot to pee in, but I just could not stand it anymore. Two boys to take with me, one with SPD I had thought about this for years and finally had to do it. It is scary, hard, but not two years later I am happy. I won't say it is all that easy but it is on my terms, I am a better person for what I have done. I have to work my butt off, but that is ok. taking that first step is the hardest, you do not know unless you try. This might be your chance to give yourself a better life. You have many talents where you can make money on your own accord. You have two months, one month to figure it out and then if you do one month to pack up. You are still very young and have many doors that can open for you!