Essentially, my situation is simple. My only source of income is my monthly SSDI check. Between my rent, bills, therapy visits, and food purchases, I really do not have much cash left for anything else.

I am afraid of looking for FT work because I worry that I will lose my medical benefits if I take that route. Nobody is hiring even PT around my part of the country, anyway.

So, I feel like I need a sense of purpose in my life. I have a couple of nasty addictions (one of them being alcohol) that have been popping back into my life over the last couple of months. The only friends I really have that live near me are people who are also in 12-step recovery. I need to expand my horizons, but I really do not know where to start.

I feel like I have little reason to wake up in the morning, and I need to snap the hell out of that mindset, the sooner, the better.

So - does anybody know of things to do that are productive and don't take a lot of cash to start up?

Sorry for not being around the last year or so - I just got Internet access back at my apartment a few days ago, and now it has a time filter on it that blocks me after my 2 hours are up for the day. That was my own idea.