Raven
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RE: The worst thing about SPD
Beck, I've tried to keep track of my pains and weird sensations, but they are so many I can't keep track. I keep a journal so that I can keep track of the big pains in my life. I'm not sure how successful that is given that once I pay attention to the sensation, it seems different from the last time.
Strangely enough, I have to have my husband tell me if anything is bad enough to warrent attention. Without him, I would either go to the doctor constantly or never.
I think things would be better if my weird sensations didn't hit my anxiety button and thereby convince me I'm going to die. Even when I was very little (3 years old) and had a strange sensation in my body, I would get anxious because I couldn't figure out what was going on and then became convinced I was going to die. THe thought was automatic even then. It took me years before I could ignore the thought. Though sometimes that doesn't work. Even last week when I had a sensory meltdown (visual), my brain told me that what was going on was going to kill me. It's weird to ignore that thought and then never be sure if what is going on is bad enough to warrent attention. Very confusing. I wish I could trust the sensations going into my body so that I knew what was a concern and what isn't.
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04-04-2012, 11:30 PM |
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