Hi, I'm Doodlebodd...or Doodlebug as my late Nan used to call me lol.

I put in a search for this SPD thing after my shrink said to me he th inks I've got it. I've never really heard much about it. I am thirty yrs old, was diagnosed with ADHD around 18 months ago which has been a good and bad thing.

I had no idea I had it, but I knew something has been wrong with me all my life and my hearin therapist reffered me to a shrink. I still have no idea why other than she said I seemed to have trouble relaxing.

I put the appointment off for a while but eventually got brave enough to go and try and talk to the psychologist bloke n he said he reckoned I had ADHD. I was ashamed, or am still ashamed as it's mostly associated with kids. I joined an online forum about for Adults with ADHD and have found that we're not all bad.

However there are lots of issues that the ADHD doesn't seem to cover. I write things down for the psychologist as I get embarressed to talk at times and I was due to finish with him last month but he looked over some more stuff I wrote down for him n said he reckons I have got this SPD or whatever it is called to do with sense problems alot.

I have had alittle nose round here and online at what it is and I think it's safe to say yea, it's me. I dont think there are many other things that you can have that make you scared of pieces of paper for instance. Unless thats just me :O

I seem to be a mix though of the things that it says you can get or have problems with because I am terrible with certain noises, certain lights, I dont really like people that much and had to go to a unit for naughty kids when I was at school because I hated mainstream school and all the people there. I never used to talk really to be honest.....
I used to have a baseball cap and keep it right over my eyes, I wouldn't let anyone see me and it was my safety thing.

I could go on and on about the things that make me seem different to normal people but then it would be a very long read so I'll shorten it a bit.

I have ADHD as said above, I have impulses and obsessions the bloke I see calls them. I shout things out, have jumps and twitches alot, do things in certain ways but get major rgaes because I can be very clumsy at times and I have no patience in myself. I go mad when I cant get things right and literally hit myself, rip my hair out, so I've shaved it now to stop myself doing that, I rip at the skin on my chest, punch myself in the head and face.

I also keep getting nasty things happen which one doctor I see thinks is some form of epilepsy but my own GP doesn't think it is so wont send me for another EEG so I'm stuck but it feels like I keep falling backwards alot. It's horrible and I go wild at myself when that happens too because I am scared and I dont know what it is as my GP wont help like they want him to.

I am very scared easily, I hate certain pieces of paper, I cant stand to see them or be near them. My girlfriend has to hide them out of the way and I hate lables and price stickers on things. It makes my skin crawl and my finger go funny. I'm getting the feeling as I type this because of just thinking about them.

I hate certain smells and want to run away from them. I hate bugs and run around like a complete idiot if they come by me. Everyone laughs or torments me about it because at my age I should know better but nothing scares me more than spiders or bees/wasps. I was on a bus one day and a wasp was flying nearby and the bus went round a round about and I panicked as the wasp came by me and I had to get off the bus right away as vomitted just as I got off. It caused me to be late to somewhere I needed to be and I got kicked off the course because of that too The bus went off and I had to walk and get another bus in the end.

I was wondering does this kind of SPD thing run in families at all? I'm not sure my Mam has it but I'm certain she has something like ADHD or similar. I know she has a diagnosis of OCD but she is alot like me in some ways. We are both petrified of hospitals which is amazing since I'm about a thirdway through lots of operations. She isn't scared of the dentist although I am still scared of going. She does say things mostly that she shouldn't, like I do, or she shouts thems out loudly at times when you shouldn't be shouting out so I do wonder really if I could have got whatever is wrong with me from her.