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I don't even know where to start - Printable Version +- SPD Support Forum (http://spdsupport.org/forum) +-- Forum: General Forums (http://spdsupport.org/forum/forum-1.html) +--- Forum: Introductions (http://spdsupport.org/forum/forum-3.html) +--- Thread: I don't even know where to start (/thread-1653.html)

I don't even know where to start - Tanyaaargh - 05-07-2015 I'm going to be 30 in Aug. and I just found out I have SPD. I had never even heard of this disorder before yesterday. I just feel like a fraud, as though every strange quirk that makes up my personality is somehow only a result of trying to cope. I feel like I lost my identity. I don't know if the diagnosis was helpful or detrimental, now I know there's a reason it has always been incredibly difficult to maintain romantic relationships, and that I don't have intimacy issues. I don't know, I guess I'm just having a pretty hard time dealing with the fact I didn't need to struggle for nearly 30 years, and that all the things I was told that were wrong with me or the way I thought weren't correct. I'm just lost.